What keeps me from writing?

Well, here it is I guess. First of all, yes, I have some fear that my writing sucks and that people are going to be like “What’s wrong with this guy?”

But, honestly, that is a peripheral reason and not the main one. The MAIN one is that I am an ADHD adult. All too often, rather than devoting myself to the craft I like to indulge in someone else’s dedication to the craft. Right now, for example, I am typing while watching “House”. That’s a good show! It is so easy to just sit back and be entertained rather than actually applying yourself. You would think as a high school English teacher I would be more devoted, but nope !

I am currently trying to write a book about a true crime that happened over a hundred years ago. Writing the story isn’t so hard, but piecing it together in a meaningful way is. I am rather comfortable with actually retelling the story, but al the complexities of what was going on in an era that passed so long ago is difficult. Linking the various socioeconomic and social aspects together in a meaningful way is even more difficult.

I have an aunt who was a very successful soap opera writer. She is brilliant really, and her myriad degrees from Yale prove it. I always just assumed she LOVED writing, but she doesn’t. She loves having WRITTEN, but getting motivated is hard even for someone whose livelihood depends on it.

I actually learned about medium from a high school student. I am hoping that this site will help motivate me. To be honest, I don’t really care if the book I am writing makes me a lot of dough, although hell it would be nice! I more just feel like the murdered kid’s story needs to be told. She shouldn’t just be erased by time because someone chose to kill her. Perhaps that feeling combined with this site will give me the drive to finish !